sunnydays :)

what a blessing it has been these past couple of days with this awesome weather!! BBQS, beach, patios, diners, drinks... the living feels easyyyy hahaha.

i've been delaying to write on my blog these days ...i don't know what to talk about on here anymore LOL..
but tonight even though i'm super tired (because i don't sleep this late anymore)...i've decided to write about the things i'm reading during my QT...
reading a book called Mere Christianity By C.S. Lewis.. tonight's chapter was on Forgiveness. Lewis points out how we as Christians must "love people who have nothing lovable about them"..especially our enemies..those who have hurt us, betrayed us, backstabbed us..so on and so forth...basically 'hate a bad man's actions, but not hate the man". after reading that chapter i felt like ..my life is pretty smooth sailing right now ..but there are little things here and there that get to me because with my relations with certain people aren't at peace. hmm... definitely should pray about this.

Luke 7: 47 Jesus says, 'i tell you, her sins- and they are many-have been forgiven, so she has shown me much love. but a person who is forgiven little shows only little love".
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chyeaaa we can't be forgiven by Him unless we forgive the ppl around us.......

ps - playlist is more dedication to some r&b music. i just.cant.stop. crazy addicted.

taken back time.

tonight i had diner with a friend whom i haven't exchanged a single word with for 4 years. he used to be one of my best friends that i use to see every single day in high school. our conversation started out as something like, "why did we stop talking to each other?"...from then on for 3 hours straight we were just sharing about each others lives...past and present since the last time we've talked. it amazes me how we can talk to each other the way we do after all these years. i really wish i was one of those people who can carry out a conversation with anyone and click more easily with people. it's not that i'm selective with who i get close to but i only feel comfortable around certain people...it's like no matter how hard i try there are people that i just can't talk to. anyways i can honestly say that time hasn't changed anything between us...and time can change a lot of things, i feel really blessed to have had this opportunity to just catch up with you tonight.

*ps - playlist dedicated to Maxwell because he is so incredible.. i saw this coming for myself.. those tracks are most likely my top 5... including Pretty Wings but Ive had that song in another playlist so i didn't put that in =P

after a very busy past couple of weeks after exams..
i finally have some time to myself ..just at home..working on my voice for a good 2 hrs straight..watching lots of korean dramas (what my playlist was inspired by LOL).. digging into the Word of God. i've been putting in a lot of effort to meet up with old friends that i haven't seen in awhile ..and it's been totally awesome catching up! last week was craaazy with all these job interviews ..running across the city from downtown toronto to all the way east in scarborough...although unfortunately I AM STILL JOBLESS >=(...
as much as i love being around people and hate being at home sometimes... i think i'm definitely an introvert..because without days like today ..i tend to go a little insane.
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i wrote a really long blog post 2 nights ago and didn't end up publishing it because i wasn't sure if it was safe too write something about my dating life... even though i only have 6 followers hahaha and i dont' even know if the 6 come to my page regularly..but anyhow, this post is pretty much an entry with no substance

*'humanly speaking, it is impossible. But with God everything is possible". Matthew 19: 26

Donethirdyear=)

Just finished my last exam of the year! haha which gave me the time to make my layout a little more prettier aka more ME..being the girllyyyy girl i am. But clearly i have no web desgining talent and this is the best i can do -_-;;;. This year's been crazy. Met a lot of new people and built many new friendships. Learned a lot about myself by being thrown into places and situations that i wasn't familiar with..especially without my security blankets (close group of girls that i used to identify myself with, a significant other, drinking&partying 24/7). I think it's an interesting question to ask yourself..like who are you deep inside without relating to your friends,family,school,work etc... who are you between just you and God if you were to loose all of what was surrounding you? i don't have all the answers for myself yet either but i think i'm walking on the right track.

this summer is going to be about :getting a job and maintaining it, volunteering, serving church&fellowship&continuegrowing spiritually,working hard on my voice&piano skills and spending time with family, workingoutakalooseweight.

my playlist theme is YOUTUBE UNDERGROUND ARTISTS. All the musicians on that list write their own stuff..all though some of the songs they sang up there are covers. i'm so inspired by asians and especially koreans who are so loaded with talent and not full of bullshit like 98% of the 'singers' in korean entertainment. Esna and Lydia are one of my all time fav korean singers representin' us! their voices are so distinctive and urban <3. KANGEL is a friend of mine named michelle choi..and i'm just putting it out there cause as you can see she's INCREDIBLY talented ..reppin' KOREANS,TORONTO and FEMALE RAPPERS (like you guys don't know how hard it is to find this even in a hip hop community..1 in a million chance!..
these girls are so inspiring.

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i wasn't going to update my blog until finals were done with..
but i love sharing and updating my playlist..so i was like oh wth i'll write a post too...
some awesome '90s r&b! these 6 songs on my list really gets me going emotionally when i listen to them..you know just one of those songs... that take you back to that time and place in your past ...and you can rememer in your head and feel it in your body and be like 'wow this is exactly how i remember myself feeling couple of years ago!". music is such a powerful thing..probably why i fell in love with it! speaking of music... today was my first sunday singing in the worship team,
i come from a background of doing countless performances and shows...and performing secular music was always about doing it for myself. strictly dealt with my love and passion for music.
Worship/praise i understand logically ..that it's about worshiping God and using my talent to honour His name, not mine. aside of all the nerves and anxiety of singing in front of the congregation.. i think i struggled with this the most: having my mind filled with all the musicality .."am i gonna sound good, or forget the lyrics, wil i remember the transitions, is my voice gonna crack". when really all i should be saying to myself is STOP THINKING ABOUT YOURSELF and just PRAISE GOD...
i guess this will improve with experinece as i continue to serve in the worship team =)

mixpod was being a total pain in the ass today. i think i tried to save this new playlist so i can put up on my page like.. 8 times!! -_-"
i put some of my favvv super oldies up there because i was inspired while i was writing my 8 page essay on Rhythm&Blues. hahaha like what else would i write it on .. =D.
as much as i hate being in school sometimes, i've realized today how driven i am when it comes to getting things done. i love making accomplishments. it's such a satisfying feeling. but for the same reason i tend to have minor..or majr melt downs when things don't go my way LOL. something i should really meditate and pray about.
i've been really out of sync with my spiritual life these past couple of weeks. this is simply because everything seemed so smooth and sailing the past month or two. but most of us know things eventually go from good to boring to bad when you're not engaged with God...slowly but surely. sooo i talked to this about darrick last week and he said "God isn't someone you should run to when things are really good or really bad..you need to share your life with him all the time". i've been challenging myself to pray the past two days with nothing special on my mind and it's incredible where God leads your conversation if you just take the time to sit down and give it a chance! if you read this post. goo tryyyy nowww =D.

bahhh

so i've been showing off all winter how i haven't gotten sick once this season.
now that the weather is finally gettin beautiful i wake up with a sore throat and minor fever....
WHYWHYWHY!!!
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